Friday, November 05, 2004

been a shag day and ain't sure why on earth i have become like this. started off working in de wee morning..everything seems so weird fm de start of the day..i din even bother to dress myself up for work. went out with shorts n tee n upon reaching there..there was this huge crowd on the highest level..think it was celebrating some opening n i was super embrass i shd put it as everyone in there was so formal. men in jackets, ties..ladies in growns, dress...i was cursing at myself for being there at such a time n i was certainly n totally such a outcast. i hurried off n went up to my place n damn...i seems late...everyone in there was all well prepare for the classes to begin n i, thou not begin late seems weird de min i stepped in. its indescribable. everything tt surrounded me hav changed. the feelin hav gone. its not way i felt the last time round since i left before my sch term starts. throughout the whole session, it seems the hours passes really slow.. i couldn't find the passion to continue my will there. i was seeking for the little one to keep the burning flow within yet its doesn't seems right either. the feelin was horrible n felt so wrong to be there at tt time. i didn't know y either. something seems to be missing there, i couldn't much define it but in a way felt the bang hitting hard against it...[missingpieces]..properly i need to have a change of enviroment.

after work, i was dismiss at a much earlier time than my fellow colleagues. had lunch with gary and my new colleague, regina..and it always seems i'm meetin new ppl in my area of jobscope. we splited ways and was heading my way to amk to collect my stuffs. bump onto alex while i was in the bus n he at the bus stop..kinda funny n yea..he still looking great as ever. the journey to my dest wasn't tt smoothing...it was pouring so heavily everywhere till my dest n fm there i decided to take a cab to my fren house instead but damn, i aligned at the wrong turning junction n got myself drench up a little upon reaching. spent the entire evening chilling out a bit n well, with some cookies to go along...after all, tt is to kill myself fm the feelin within.


.EstRella.
@ 01:15